FEELING LOST

So,i gt my result

Happy and unhappy,both i felt.

happy because i achieved my target

unhappy because i cant get bursary scholarship just because of less one A+

All of these are because of desire.

When we get what we want,we long for more

I still rmb that when my senior gt their SPM result,some of them didnt get Straight A+ and felt unhappy

"WTF they want?! for me,if i gt 10A i will be satisfy"

bt slowly,i set my target higher and higher,even 10A+ when i was taking my SPM examination

Soon,i felt nothings for getting a good result.

Yes,im proud of myself ! just for two days.

Then, 10A so what ?! It just made you proud and happy in the split of seconds

After that , you have to keep thinking ,thinking and thinking 

Think what are your interest , what are u going to study , where are u going to study ?!

And then keep applying,applying and applying

No matter what is the scholarship,just apply.Fill in the stupid information and submit it.

10A's student is all around and u have to fight with them for the scholarships

JPA scholarships for 300 students but over thousands ppl gt straight A in Malaysia

Beside applying scholarship,im still in two,even three,four and five minds in making decision for my course

Medic - study like stupid and crazy , on-call even u have to exam 2mr

Dentistry - Hard like shit

Engineering - Hate physics

'不读得好一点会对不起家人对不起自己;

要读得好一点却要辛苦家人辛苦自己'

Why we demand so much ? It's just killing you slowly 

Seriously,i would like to give up to further my study.

Mayb selling Nasi Lemak beside the street

Mayb helping my dad in his ANITA shop that is full of mosquitioes

Mayb seving customer in Kopitan

Mayb,mayb....

LIFE ...